beneath-the-surface

i remember the first time you told me you loved me. i remember how my palms began to sweat immediately following the swift rush of blood to my head (and heart). it was midsummer and exactly what i had been waiting to hear for the past four years. in eight letters you broke down months of resolve, and hard work. in eight letters, you made me fall for you again, and again, and again so when i finally came up for air, all I could say was 'and i think i love you too'. the next week was the best week of my life; even the sun couldn't compete with the light radiating from within somewhere in the middle of my chest. i didn't know that a week later,

i called b eight times last night and listened to his voicemail just so i could hear the sound of his voice. i hung out with n last night and all of today and he loves you, he said he'd marry you in a heart beat if you guys were at that point in your lives. he said to get out of my relationship with b because he knows it was no good for you he says he knows you can do better, you should do better, and you deserve so much better than him. hes a really sweet boy. he says i should run as fast as a can from b. ive gotten shitfaced the past four nights... and i still cant get b out of my god-damned mind.

and i hope in her you see what you never saw in me.

There used to be a time when simple smiles were enough. When climbing into your bed just as the honeyed sun began to filter through the windows was just the thing I needed. We used to laugh easily, love easily, care easily. We used to be easily. Our existence was simple and seemingly fixed. But then the fights started; our words and thoughts tinged red with jealousy, anger, irritation, and a need for freedom; a need for bluer skies, greener seas, and lighter minds. I remember sitting on the edge of the dock; toes barely skimming the cool surface of the pond below, listening to you tell story after story in-between deep inhalations and shall

there was a time before you and i when nothing seemed just right you were left behind and she told you it's just not our time will you remember me if i promise that i'll hold your hand (never let go) will you stay close to me i can show you how to love again. just let me be the one to give you love the pain will end. will you remember me if i promise that i'll hold your hand (never let go) i'll hold your hand.

and i'm tired of falling in and out of love with who i thought you were. who i convinced myself you could be i'm tired of loving a shell of the person you might have been, because baby, your edges are crumbling and the planes of you cheekbones beginning to fade. and im scared, im scared because everytime i reach for your hand, it dissappears right before my eyes. youre leaving me, slowly leaving me. bit by bit. piece by piece. and my feet, my feet they cant keep up, cant maintain the pace at which your weaving your way in and out of my vision. in and out of my life. you promised you'd be there when i got back

babe, you've set my heart a-racin and my thoughts a spinnin. i can no longer seperate where i end and you begin. we've become a singly entity like the night and the stars. and my fingers are searchin for something, someone, to hold them tight and promise to never let go ----- somtimes i think hearts are like puzzle pieces and if somehow we could all manage to align our piece with the others, the world would finally find the one thing we all want and need. ----- lately, ive been fixated with this image of a night sky, darker than the darkest blue, and deeper than the deepest ocean, sprinkled with a million twinkling stars, reflecting

don't leave me don't hurt me, promise you'll never let me down. just be there, touch me there. i'll live here in your arms. i'll kiss  you, i need you, to be there in my heart. dont leave me, dont hurt me, promise you'll never let me down. don't leave me, don't hurt me. promise you'll never let me down right hereeee right nowwwww right hereee. right now for me. right hereeeee right nowwwwww right hereeeee right now for me. believe me, dont leave me pronmise you'll never let me down. dont hurt me, dont leave me, promise you'll never let me down..